What were the conditions.. i was not told... Did i break any rules? Or just ignored to follow it.. Makes any sense? i know; i'm confused too...
With everything within my grasp, with everything firmly secured, with everybody loving me completely, i am still feeling insecured.. still feeling lonely..
I am a handicapped man.
Its been a while since i went home.
Been on the roads for way too long; trying to find my way back home....
I love my job.. what i do.. where i've been... what i've seen.. but this thing i do is kinda drowning me...
I miss my mum, my dad... my gal.. and especially my buddies..
Its been so long since i hugged my mom, shook my dad's hand, kissed my gal, and fooled around with my buds..
They are all there, firmly placed.. but where am i?
I am here, but not there...
What if its too late?
Its raining on me and its cold...shivering cold... but i feel warmth just under my eyes.. and it ain't rain drops...
I am floating right now.. barely.. but what if i drown?? Where will i wander around?? Shit... even that rhymes..
I was on a chooper heading to south china sea on new years day while my family was having lunch together... everybody was with somebody.. i was beside an Indonesian who looked as lost as i was..
Some people feel lonely or heartbroken or even dejected.. when they lose someone they love..
What about me?? i have everybody yet i feel.. island..
Time management?? Proper Work segregation? Damn.. that sounds tooo machine...
I hope to swim ashore soon.. the tide is getting higher..
With everything blessed to be mine, i still feel cursed..
I am breathing , yet i'm suffocating..
I am a handicap.
